These last few months have been hard to understand. Being on the planet for over 40 years means that I’ve lived through quite a lot of things that are simply too hard to grasp.
What’s different now? I’m the grownup, I’m the one who needs to tell my children what’s happening in the world around them but part of me wants to sheild them. How can I educate when I simply don’t understand it, I can’t legitimise the actions of shootings in schools, the Manchester arena bombing, people being gunned down or stabbed when they are minding their own business.
I fell asleep last night on the evening of 03.06.2017 at only 21:35 after settling down the children and I lay on the bed for ‘just a minute’. I was awoken when H2B got into bed and told me about London.
From that point on my mind couldn’t rest. Only a few weeks before we’d enjoyed mooching around Borough Market and Emily sampled her first oyster. NOTHING is going to taint those memories. I simply won’t let them.
Luke work at 02:00 and I was happy that he did. I want to hold him and love him and as he sat on my knee he drank some milk and I had a cup of tea and I watched on repeat what was unfolding on the news.
In the words of my daughter….everyone needs to sit on the naughty step and get their bad thoughts out then say sorry and then hug the world.
So could you all do me a favour please? Just be nice and look after each other and have faith in humanity as without that THEY have won.